November 26, 2009

The last four weeks, since Oct. 29th, have been the hardest of my life. Not only did I lose my husband, I lost my best friend, my greatest supporter, my rock, my reason for being. Tommy was my whole life. I truly don't know how I am going to live without him. Each day is a struggle. I can't close my eyes without seeing him. Sometimes I swear I hear his voice. I still check my phone for missed calls or messages from him. I love him and miss him so very very much.

I want to say thank you to everyone who has called, sent cards, emails, thoughts and prayers. They mean so much to me.

I probably won't be around much til after the beginning of the year. I will post pics of the Victorian Boots and ornaments from those exchanges on the CQ4N group. Tommy always helped me with them and he enjoyed them as much as I did.

I wish I could hibernate for the next 6 months...through Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas, New Year's, Valentines Day, our wedding anniversary and his birthday.

I wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving. Please don't give up on me, I will be back...just not sure when.


Karen said...

Stay strong! You have good friends and we will be here with you, just call if you need us! Thank you for doing the boot swap, we all enjoy it so much! I can't imagine life without my DH so I have no idea what pain you are going through, but I believe that it will get better with time. Huge Hugs, KarenK

Gerry said...

Mary, your post brought tears to my eyes. My heart just aches for you. I'm so very, very sorry.

I will keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts. I wish you strength and I hope you are able to find some measure of peace in the near future.

gocrazywithme said...

You're worth waiting for, my friend! Take your time and we'll be here when you're ready to come back. In the mean time, remember we're praying for you, thinking about you, and loving you from afar. I'll write to you soon, too. One note is in the mail, along with my boot for the swap.

Maddie Can Fly said...

Yep, I know you'll be back, I won't let you fade away. I'm such a nag you know (LOL). I'm hoping for peace of mine for you.