Tommy and his Zoepuppa

The last four weeks, since Oct. 29th, have been the hardest of my life. Not only did I lose my husband, I lost my best friend, my greatest supporter, my rock, my reason for being. Tommy was my whole life. I truly don't know how I am going to live without him. Each day is a struggle. I can't close my eyes without seeing him. Sometimes I swear I hear his voice. I still check my phone for missed calls or messages from him. I love him and miss him so very very much.

I want to say thank you to everyone who has called, sent cards, emails, thoughts and prayers. They mean so much to me.

I probably won't be around much til after the beginning of the year. I will post pics of the Victorian Boots and ornaments from those exchanges on the CQ4N group. Tommy always helped me with them and he enjoyed them as much as I did.

I wish I could hibernate for the next 6 months...through Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas, New Year's, Valentines Day, our wedding anniversary and his birthday.

I wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving. Please don't give up on me, I will be back...just not sure when.

Tommy Neal LearBOSSIER CITY, LA - Tommy Neal Lear, 51, passed away Thursday, October 29, 2009, in Bossier City, Louisiana.Funeral service for Tommy Lear will be held Wednesday, November 4, 2009 at Hill Crest Memorial Chapel at 2:00 p.m. with interment to follow. Reverend Dale Farley will be officiating. Visitation will be Tuesday, November 3, 2009 from 5 until 8:00 p.m.Tommy was a member of Messiah Lutheran Church in Monroe, LA, and was employed as Chief Engineer at Days Inn on Monkhouse Dr. in Shreveport, LA.Tommy is survived by his wife, Mary Pauline Lear, daughters Chelsa Ann Lear and Erin Ree Lear, son, Patrick James Lear, Furbabies Zoe and Zax, granddaughter, Jaylee Lear, father, Tom Lear, mother and stepfather, Marie and Thomas McManus, brother, Jerry Lear, sister, Michelle Lear, nephew, Jeremy Lear, mother-in-law, Caroline Cummings, brother-in-law Jeremy Cummings, and numerous nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends.Pallbearers will be Jerry Lear, Jeremy Lear, Jeremy Cummings, David Harris, Gustave Von Bodungen, and Nelson Pothiere. Hill Crest Memorial